bread and water

  It took my breath away when we drove away.  Some of my darkest days were spent in this little house. When we pulled into the driveway all I could think about was the postpartum depression that swallowed me up.  That’s why there is a big age gap between our third and fourth son. I was scared I would have PPD again. I didn’t have it after our fourth son was born but I did have depression after our fifth child miscarried at 4 months. I didn’t talk about it while I was walking through it. I didn’t really know that’s what it was for a long time.  But I felt like I couldn’t breathe. Anxiety . I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, but I was still breastfeeding my newborn baby.   I know where I went wrong. And now that I’ve been through and studied health and wellness there are things I would tell young mothers so they don’t have to suffer like I did.  Instead of having my third baby and going home to rest and let family help take care of me, the house, and the two ot...

I remember being a young wife & reading lots of books about how to be a good wife. I grew up spoiled in some ways & didn’t know how  to cook or clean or iron (I still don’t iron well. Thank God for steamers!)  I’m 42 now & have been married for 21 years. I was 20 when I got married.  Titus 2:4-5 says, “that they (older women) admonish the young women to love their husbands, to love their children, to be discreet, chaste, homemakers, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be blasphemed.” One book I read was not a christian book and it was called The Proper Care & Feeding of Husbands. She basically said husbands need food & intimacy. I was telling the young ladies in bible study that the devil is so sly he tries to get couples to commit fornication before marriage & then he tries to get married women not to have sex with their husbands or for the spouse to have an extramarital affair or the use of pornography.  God de...