Turning 41 feels like…

 My Thoughts on Middle Age Birthdays


Turning 41 feels like…


should I wear spanx with that outfit?


buying eye glasses for the first time

but not wearing them because do I really need them?


having regrets in life but also realizing it’s not too late to do new things 


realizing I should’ve started anti aging skincare decades ago 


yet feeling grateful to have lines on my face that show proof I have smiled and laughed a lot and enjoyed the sunshine 


it feels like trying not to compare myself to others who have gotten any number of body parts enhanced, plumped, perfected and injected 


“I am fearfully and wonderfully made”


in a culture that praises beauty, God reminds me that “Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting but a woman who fears the Lord will be praised”

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