Truth Be Told

  

It is okay to be not okay

 I talked about brokenness at the ladies conference in Georgia and I didn’t know Amy Thomas was going to sing a song beforehand called Truth Be Told by Matthew West. It was perfect how well it went with what I had been going through. This song really ministered to me and it helps me to hear it. 

    I am learning that it’s ok to not be ok. I am learning that it’s ok to get help. It’s ok to feel broken and angry. But we need to tell someone and start the process of healing. I started seeing a christian counselor 7 or 8 months ago, not sure on the timing. It’s hard for a Pastors wife and recovering perfectionist to admit that. But God is breaking my pride and self righteousness and showing me that I don’t have to prove myself to Him or anyone else. He loves me in my mess. God has been setting me free from things and I’ve been doing well and then falling flat on my face failing at things as well. 

    “The road to success is full of adversity” So just remember you are not alone in your struggle. There are people out there on social media that look like they have it all together but sometimes they don’t. I don’t. Just being honest. The battle is real. The spiritual warfare is real. We need to lift each other up and pray for each other and encourage each other. Raise your hand below in the comments if you have been on the struggle bus and need prayer. I’ll call your name out to the Lord. And you can call my name out to Him too.



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